Gaza Blog: My point of view toward peace
When I wake up every day in the morning I thank God for me and my family that we are still alive, and then I call the SOS Children’s Village’s Director and ask him the same question every day “Is everyone in the village still alive?” I live in the middle east which an area that really in need for peace, don’t be surprise about me or the way I am thinking about peace, to me, peace is everything, it’s like a butterfly that goes with me anywhere I go, It’s on my mirror when I comb my hair, it’s on my coffee cub that I drink every day, it’s with me in my car, it’s in the conference hall that I attend, I see it everywhere that I am in.
I am going to take you to the past when I was studying in (Heidelberg University) in Germany, I had a good relation with my colleagues and with my department teachers and I still do, but at the time they use to be aggressively supportive to Israel, but they never reject me, I use to be worried and did not feel comfortable with it, but I have never been against peace. As the time goes by, my friends’ possession changed and they became more supportive for peace, also my conceptions changed to where the peace between the two countries is the only solution for the Palestinian case, and then it becomes an issue that has been adapted by all the nations around the world as well as the Palestinian authority. Since these changes happened, I have been living in an endless siege. When the war started, it was only consist on random assassinations and destruction to some building in an intermittent way, but suddenly the war took an aggressive turn and it became a destructive war that wipes everything in its way, I haven’t thought in my entire life that I am going to live such a war for 22 days of nonstop airstrikes upon people, maybe because I use to think that the people in Gaza Strip are civilian and they are not going to in any harm at all.
By the way, I haven’t ever discussed with my family anything about the Palestinian and The Israeli conflict; I left this matter for them to find out the true things about it. Gaza now is like a cage, I can’t travel or go anywhere freely, I am not living in a safe place anymore and my friends can’t come and visit me at all, my life has changed completely, there is not much left in Gaza after the mass destruction in its structures, life is harder nowadays, I am feeling the bitterness of the siege that is holding me and the peace that I am looking for, and I really can’t hide my worries about the SOS Children’s Village that maybe one day the destruction will get to it like what had happened years ago, and if the structures or the people get harmed it’s a normal thing, so it means that it’s not necessary to be guilty in any way.
As a matter of fact, all my hopes of the Palestinian territory which is been specified under the laws and regulation of the security council of the United Nations to develop and build the State of Palestine, now it is decreasing slowly because of the random invasions, I am really afraid of two things; one, may be one day there will be no land to start the state of Palestine and I get kicked out and become a refugee; and the other one I am get killed or die before I see peace in the area. But I am still holding on to my thoughts of peace, I am always thinking of the people who I want to make peace with, they are strong and have all kinds of powerful weapons, they don’t think about peace like I do every day, the strange part of this, that all the world is asking that I need to keep holding on to peace and keep hopes, I will do that and I still do, but there is one thing that I need to say to the world which is “I am going to make peace with myself” this is a beautiful thing to think about but it’s not enough .
The suitable solution that I really see would work is that the whole world should help and support the Palestinian people to construct and start a Palestinian State that live in harmony and end all these bad and painful chapters from people’s lives.
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